Until We Meet Again

My final post has taken so long to come around because I was waiting for the time when I had let go of my life in America to say goodbye to my last written tie.  I have come to realise though, I will never be ready to let go of that part of my life.  I've been back in Australia for 71 days now, and every single one of those days I've thought of America at least once.  

You sacrifice a lot when you choose to uplift your whole life and live overseas.  You voluntarily put yourself in financial hardship, stretch the limits of some friendships, and constantly wonder who will be there when you get home.  You find out where people's loyalties really lie.

I remember the first night I spent properly alone when I got back to Australia.  It was the first time I'd been alone in about six months and was a strange feeling.  I suddenly didn't have Caitlin in the bed a few feet from me, my friends weren't in the same building anymore, and I was no longer visiting my family.  All I had was me in my big old house.  And to be honest, it was a shock.  I've always been someone who didn't mind being alone, but I'd become so use to having so many people around me that I no longer liked being alone.

Very quickly my life was thrown into turmoil.  It's been so hard coming home to something I thought I wouldn't have to face for at least another couple of years.  This early on I already know that 2017 is not going to be my year, and if I could escape the reality of what awaits me these coming months, I'd be on the next flight back to the USA.  Try as I might, I know I have absolutely no chance of escaping the cards that have been dealt for this year, so I'm taking it day by day and praying like hell that everyone comes through this with the least amount of disruption to our normal lives as possible.  

I don't know how it's already week 5 of uni, but things are in full swing.  I've already completed one clinical this semester and have my next one in May.  After this semester I only have three subjects left until graduation!  Exciting and scary thought all in one.

This past weekend I took the weekend off from life and spent it in Brisbane with family where we explored the city and went to the Dixie Chicks!  Talk about amazing!  It also came at a time when I needed to get out of Toowoomba and not think about anything uni or medical related.

I will be forever grateful for the memories and friendships I made while in the USA and one day I will return to what I consider a second home.  I have had so many people tell me that they have no desire at all to visit America, and all I can say to them is give the amazingly gorgeous country a chance (even if the people made a not so good decision last year...).  It's seriously one of my favourite countries that I've visited (and I've been to quite a few).

I'm trying to think of the best thing I can say to wrap it all up, but there's no perfect way to summarise and let go of such a big part of your life.  So I'm just gonna leave it at this.

That's all for now folks.

Adios Amigos.

Tyarna xx